back at this space like finally after almost half a year??
within a blink, it's already 6th day of 2012.
the weight load on my shoulders are getting even more & more heavier, till i
can't barely breathe.
stress, tense up, insecure, pessimistic feelings are all back to haunt me.
i am smiling, but close to tears. Always trying to put a strong side of me in front
of others, but only some will know all this times i'm just pretending, making me crazy.
1 whole entire year wasted, the reality and society outside had really gave me a big slap.
What's the fucking point being regret now right? But from this moment onwards, i
will try to do what i can to achieve the best results and get into my ideal poly course.
Regardless of how many classes i have to attend, midnight oil i need to burn at night, tons
of ten years series i have to complete. I promise, i will give in all my best for this one last time.

sometimes i really wish to fall into a deep sleep and never wake up anymore..



The 10 Rules:







I love it when you...

• hold my hand
• kiss my forehead
• smell my hair when I'm in your arms.
• buy me ice cream
• take the initiative to text me first
• act stupid just to make me laugh.
• willing to act silly/childish when you are with me.
• give me your shirt or jacket when I'm cold.
• let me style your hair
• share your food and drinks with me.
• hug me from behind.
• hold my hand without asking.
• give me surprises.
• say "let's not fight anymore"
• send good morning and good night messages.
• call just to say you miss me.
• put up a status on facebook for me.
• say "ouch!" when I bite your lips.
• don't want to let go of my hand.
• share stories to your friends about us.
• ask for my opinions or permission before doing something.
• walk me home.
• cares & nags like a father.
• piggyback me whenever I am feeling tired.
• keep quiet and listen to my grumbles.
• make me feel I complete you.
• treat me as I am the only one in your eyes.
• always put me as your first priority.

If your another half had done all these above, he/she is really someone worth holding on to. xx

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I miss you extra tonight :(



*bb's cramped face







Eyebrows ftw~





Vampire lovers

Haven't been updating this space for like 1,2,3,4 months I guess? Some pix uploaded to keep this blog alive!

Attend the scape flea yesterday, this time round I screwed up the whole thing. I can even forget about the most important thing, which is the rack. I was really angry with myself, for having such a pea brain that can hardly remember the important things. URGHHH >:l
But all thanks to my sweet boy, he don't mind to actually cab back my house & get the rack for me and cab back to the flea AGAIN. Tell me how not to love him?
Aftermath, we went chompchomp for supper. Frolick for dessert, yay! I just love spending my weekend with my baybeh boi ♥ (he should get what I meant right? winkwink)

That's all, it's time for a good rest. G'night sweethearts, xx

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This isn’t for anybody in particular. Just, whoever is reading this. If you don’t feel loved, or if you’ve been having a rough time with things and you’re ready to give up, or if you just feel like shit for no reason right now, or if your “friends” are treating you like shit, know that there is…
— Xiu yun Xie

“Ask most people what they want out of life, and the answer is simple: to be happy. Maybe it’s this expectation though, the wanting to be happy, that just keeps us from ever getting there. Maybe the more we try and will ourselves to states of bliss, the more confused we get, to the point where we don’t recognize ourselves. Instead, we just keep smiling, trying like hell to be the happy people we wish we were. Until eventually, it hits us: it’s been there all along. Not in our dreams or hopes, but in the known. The comfortable. The familiar.”
— Grey’s Anatomy (via withoutyouimnothing)